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i have nothing to do and nothing to look foward to just sitting here all day for 2 months im going to lose it and go crazy if summer keeps going the way it is i wont be alive by the end of the summer
now that my lobes are happy at a 0g im going to go to a 00g
this post is so pintless but i have nothing else to do
ive bought so much shit that i dont need off ebay
andrews all of a sudden not allowed to come so in december hell definetly be able to stay mum says. ugh he says he might be able to come in july and stay in a hotel for a few days which sucks ass but ohwell i cant wait till december so i think its going to end very soon
i got my hair cut i hate it and i got my eyebrows waxed for the first time and im never doing that again
i just want to sleep and wake up august 7th for warped tour and school because that all i have to look foward to
god im pathetic
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[5. 29. 05 // @ 10 : 59 pm] |
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i hate how i get pissed so easily. i hate how i so hypocritical. i hate how i give up so easily. i hate how i cant do anything good. i hate the fact that i have no talent. i hate how lisa and i arnt friends anymore. i hate how i dont have a job. i hate my mom for getting pregnet. i hate andrew being so far away. i hate temptaion. i hate how i have no self control. i hate how i hurt people. i hate the way i look. i hate the fact aht i only have about 3 friends. i hate always being the one giving in the friendship. i hate getting hurt. i hate being cheated on. i hate being backstabbed. i hate the summer. i hate when people care about me. i hate extacy. i hate when people tell me all their problems but then i cant say a damn thing about myself. i hate how i cant sing. i hate how i sit home all day. i hate my family with the exeption of alyssa and aunt susan. i hate how im never going to go anywhere inlife. i hate how im into photography even though its the only thing i can do good because im ganna end up being some shitty wedding photographer. i hate how warpedtour is the day before school. i hate having curley hair. i hate not being able to stay faithful. i hate how i cant stop taking pills. i hate lieing. i hate the way i do everything. i hate how i feel like im always a disapointment. i hate how i cant stay foucused. i hate telling people shit. i hate always being involved in drama. i hate nightmares.i hate when my friends get hurt because of assholes. i hate drunk drivers. i hate how im so gullable. i hate the feeling of being alone. i hate hating. i hate loving. i hate action movies. i hate being bored. i hate everyone in the state of michigan. i hate not being either extremly happy or extremly sad all the time. i hate being overwelmed. i hate wanting. i hate how my lip ring is crooked. i hate being a girl. i hate growing up. i hate not knowing what my future will be like. i hate the unknown. i hate having no patience. i hate having no money. i hate how i always complain. i hate when people never call me back. i hate having such an early curfew. i hate listening to people cry because of what i did. i hate not being completly honest. i hate livejounral but i cant seem to get away from it. i hate everyone ive ever done anything with exept for 2 people. i hate my stepdad. i hate never knwoing what i want. i hate planes. i hate hurting the person i love.
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(x) smoked a cigarette
(x) smoked a cigar
(x) smoked anything else
(x) made out with a member of the same sex
( ) crashed a friend's car
(x) been in love
(x) been dumped
(x) shoplifted
( ) been fired
(x) been in a fist fight.
( ) snuck out of parent's house
(x) had feelings for someone who didn't have them back
( ) been arrested
( ) made out with a stranger
( ) gone on a blind date
(x) lied to a friend
( ) had a crush on a teacher
(x) skipped school
( ) slept with a co-worker
( ) seen someone die
( ) had/have a crush on one of your MYSPACE friends
( ) been to Canada
(x) been to Mexico
(x) been on a plane
( ) thrown up in a bar
(x) eaten Sushi
( ) been snowboarding
( ) met someone BECAUSE of myspace
(x) been moshing at a concert
(x) been in an abusive relationship
(x) taken painkillers
(x) love someone right now
(x) laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by
( ) made a snow angel
(x) had a tea party
(x) flown a kite
(x) built a sand castle
(x) gone puddle jumping
(x) played dress up
(x) jumped into a pile of leaves
( ) gone sledding
(x) cheated while playing a game
(x) been lonely
(x) fallen asleep at work/school
( ) used a fake ID
(x) watched the sun set
( ) felt an earthquake
(x) touched a snake
(x) been tickled
(x) been robbed
( ) robbed someone
(x) been misunderstood
(x) pet a reindeer/goat
(x) won a contest
(x) been suspended from school
(x) had detention
(x) been in a car accident
( ) had braces
( ) eaten a whole pint of ice cream in one night
(x) had deja vu
(x) danced in the moonlight
(x) hated the way you look
(x) witnessed a crime
( ) pole danced
(x) questioned your heart
(x) been obsessed with post-it notes
(x) squished barefoot through the mud
(x) been lost
( ) been to the opposite side of the country
(x) swam in the ocean
(x) felt like dying
(x) cried yourself to sleep
(x) played cops and robbers
(x) recently colored with crayons/colored pencils/markers
( ) sung karaoke
(x) paid for a meal with only coins
(x) done something you told yourself you wouldn't
(x) made prank phone calls
(x) laughed until some kind of beverage came out of your nose
( ) caught a snowflake on your tongue
(x) kissed in the rain.
(x) written a letter to Santa Claus
( ) been kissed under a mistletoe
( ) watched the sun set with someone you care about
(x) blown bubbles
( ) made a bonfire on the beach
( ) crashed a party
(x) have traveled more than 5 days with a car full of people
(x) gone rollerskating/blading
(x) had a wish come true
( ) humped a monkey
(x) worn pearls
( ) jumped off a bridge
(x) screamed "penis" in class
(x) ate dog food (ahh the days of truth or dare)
(x) told a complete stranger you loved them
(x) sang in the shower
( ) have a little black dress
( ) fucked in a park
( ) fucked in the bathroom
(x) had a dream that you married someone
(x) glued your hand to something
( ) got your tongue stuck to a pole
( ) kissed a fish
(x) worn the opposite sexes clothes
( ) been a cheerleader
(x) sat on a roof top
( ) had sex at a church
(x) screamed at the top of your lungs
( ) done a one-handed cartwheel
(x) talked on the phone for more than 6 hours
(x) stayed up all night
(x) didnt take a shower for a week
( ) pick and ate an apple right off the tree
(x) climbed a tree
( ) had a tree house
(x) are scared to watch scary movies alone
(x) believe in ghosts
( ) have more then 30 pairs of shoes
(x) worn a really ugly outfit to school
(x) (skinny dipping?)gone streaking
( ) played ding-dong-ditch
( ) played chicken fight
(x) been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on
(x) been told you're hot by a complete stranger
(x) broken a bone
(x) been easily amused
(x) caught a fish then ate it
( ) made porn
(x) caught a butterfly
(x) laughed so hard you cried
(x) cried so hard you laughed
(x) mooned/flashed someone
(x) had someone moon/flash you
(x) cheated on a test
(x) forgotten someone's name
(x) slept naked
(x) French braided someones hair
(x) gone skinny dippin in a pool
( ) been kicked out of your house
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well i didnt have any plans tonight and then a few people come over and before i know it im on the road to orlando to go see BOB DYLAN, it was great i got to see a buch of people trippin,got a free bag of kryp,and actually see bob dylan im pleased with how my night went
ugh i keep getting hit on by these guys and they kept follwing me and thier like did you come with your boyfriend and i said yeah and pointed to the biggest guy i could see
acording to my family im a depressed teenage who is going to be nothing but a loser in life.......i hate my family
andrew and i have been fighting ALOT lately
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